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Do you ever feel that way? You look at the scale and say HELP! I keep trying to tell myself that it doesn't matter, but it does to me. I simply want to get down to where I was. I don't want to be pin thin or wear bikini's or anything. Just where I was and fitting into my clothing.

So how have I been doing? Well, I just ate a chocolate bar and 3 small choc chip cookies. BLAH!! But I've been doing sooooo good for the past 10 days! I've been exercising at least 4-5 days a week. That consists of riding my bike (sometimes with T in the carrier that follows along behing adding extra resistance!) and I'd usually do between 1-3 miles. I want to do more but by then T is tired of riding in the back or I have other things that I need to do.

 I also have been keeping up with my kickboxing. I LOVE KICKBOXING! The ones I have now that I use are 30 minutes to Fitness (click the link and you can watch a clip!) and 10 minute solution: Knockout Body. I also use Step Boxing (again you can see a clip). Step boxing was hard for me at first but now I can do it easily! I love kickboxing because it tones at the same time you are doing cardio. I use weighted gloves to get more out of it! I'm all about getting the most out of my workout. I usually do these 3 videos, although I have about 20. I'm thinking of selling some and getting more kickboxing videos to try. So I usually ride my bike every nice day, which now-a-days seems to be one or two nice days then 3-5 days of rain. Then on other days I do my kickboxing.

As far as food, I have been getting lots of fruits and veggies. I can't wait until I can go to farmer's markets and get some fresh, local stuff! I've really been trying to eat mostly fruits and veggies throughout the day and dinner as usual. Breakfast consists of either yogurt and fruit or oatmeal and raisins. Snack is either a granola bar or fruit/veggies. Lunch is more veggies with dip, or a salad, and  cottage cheese. Sometimes I have a tomato sandwhich or homemade chicken salad with lowfat mayo. Dinner is whatever I make. Sometimes it's full of fat, but I usually do all homemade and eat one serving. (Usually one serving!) If I make meat I have on small portion and fill the rest of my plate with veggies. And still after all that I haven't lost. Grrr...

So what happened today? I don't know. I just pigged out on my chocolate and cookies. But I'm not going to beat myself up now. I did it and it's done. I'm moving on and will do better the rest of the day.

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Update!

So, still, my eating is much to be desired. *insert rolling eyes here* I have been praying and trying so hard and I feel like this battle will never be won. Why does food have to have such a hold on me? Bah! It is just so irritating. I don't want to be stick thin. I just want to be healthy and I know my eating habits (in private, anyway) are much to be desired. And I have still been exercising. I know that I need to eat healthier and cut out all the junk and carbs.

It is just so frustrating to have this hanging over my head.

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Daily happenings

Well, I'm checking in again already! I think I did farily well yesterday. I still need to improve my eating but I did better! I think sparkpeople helped! Here are my stats from yesterday:



I mean, there is definitely room for improvement. I did have one small square of Wonka chocolate that I forgot to add in. I need more fiber and protein. I wanted to get some veggies before bed for a snack but I was so tired and my littlest was sick. I did exercise for awhile. I did 10 minutes on the jump rope (which really is hard work! I was very winded!). That burned about 138 calories and then I rode about 1.5 miles on my bike. First I had T (my 3yr old) in the trailer and then MyMy (my5yr old) so I got a little extra workout. I supposedly burned 210 calories for 40 minutes of riding but I think it was more for the added weight. It was so good to go outside and exercise though! Now I'm down 2lbs. I was 191 and this morning I was 189.2 so that's 1.8lbs!

I did get to ride over a mile today on my bike again but I blew it at lunch when I had chili cheese fries. But I'm not going to let it get me down! A healthier dinner is on the way!

Anyway, so my goals are the same as yesterday. Hopefully the Rev and I will get to walk today. (If you don't know who the Rev. is check out my family/personal blog.

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Check in!

Well, I don't really want to check in. BLAH! I still feel gross. Gained 2 more pounds. I have been exercising at least 20min on 4-5 days a week. I think I need to up it to 30 minutes. My problem is I have been feeling completely exhausted. And I thought my eating was getting better, but apparantly not due to the fact that I gained again! So I am back to using sparkpeople.com. I hate writing down what I eat but every time I have I've lost weight. I've been so busy and stressed that I feel like it will interfere with more important things (and it will) but I suppose my health is important too! I did 10 minutes of jumping rope outside and burned 138 calories. I need to do 10 more minutes at least of something today. I think I'll ride my bike later with the boys.

As far as eating, I really thought I was doing better but I think I need to cut my portions back a little bit. I also haven't been keeping to my goal of having half of my plate veggies. So this weeks goals are the following;
1. Fill half my plate with veggies. (morning can be fruit)
2. Exercise 30 min for 5 days a week. (with strength training at least 2 days)
3. Cut back on portions
4. 1 small piece of chocolate a day. (SMALL!)
5. Use sparkpeople consistently to track my food and exercise

I'll be back to update later in the week!

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Overeating stinks.

Ah, yes, most people who know me probably don't know I have this problem. I know I am one of many who does. I am overweight but not terribly. I'd like to lose 30 pounds. I've been up and down. My highest weight when not pregnant was 218lbs. (I'm 5'8") I got all the way down to 179lbs and am now up 10lbs to 189lbs. My pants are tight. I am feeling yucky. The problem? Too much of a good thing. I love sweets. I love to bake. You put those two together and it is not a good situation!

I am an emotional eater as well. Happy? Eat. Sad? Eat. Stressed? Lots of eating. I think you get the picture. I've prayed fervently over this for some time now and I am hoping that this online journal will keep me motivated. I've used sparkpeople.com in the past with good success. I just hate counting calories. And my family genetics make it hard to lose but easy to gain. Wouldn't it be so much nicer if that were reversed?!

Anyway, I am changing my eating habits and continuing my exercising and keeping track of what I am doing in the hopes that with this and God's help, my eating sweets will be under control.

My goals:
1. Half my plate is veggies.
2. No second helpings!
3. One-two small sweets a day. (I can't go cold turkey, ya know!)
4. Exercise at least 20-30 minutes at least 5 days a week.

I'm gonna start there and see how it goes!

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